Story

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This is one of our oldest songs and along with Valley of Misery is the most popular song we've made. We (me and our original drummer) did this piece in a middle of a night with two acoustic guitars. It was unfinished for a long time until we were asked to play a song via the central radio system on my friend's funeral. I finished the song in a few hours and then we recorded and down-mixed it (the older version) with my four-tracker in 17 hours. Lots of retakes and fuck-ups... This is an official version re-recorded and re-produced to PanDEMOnium promo CD.

Lyrics tell a story about a person that has came totally bored and depressed with life and then decides to commit suicide. Lyrics concentrate on the associations and brainwork that is done before the making of an actual decision.

The song is dedicated to Harri Kilpeläinen 5.4.1972 - 29.7.1995.

Lyrics

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It's raining outside
And i feel the same
They say that life is a gift
But for me it's just a game

Another wakening
Another sleep
Another wasted day
I left behind me

In my early childhood
Everything just seemed so nice
But when you get older
Your dream just slowly dies

I just want to sleep away
I can't take another day
This sad life philosophy

Life lost it's shining colors
All exciting painted grey
Line between black and white
Gets finer every day

I just want to sleep away
I can't take another day
This sad life philosophy

(Spoken part. Only exists on the older version from 1997)
"To sleep is a paradise for me
But after a wonderful dream I open my eyes
And the nightmare begins

Every step I take forward
Brings me two steps back
Deeper and deeper
Into the grey ocean of vanity

Oh God, lay your eyes on me
Your son is coming home
No grief or regrets
No questions asked, no reasons wondered
But always remember that you did nothing wrong

There's time for everything
To dry the tears, to look forward
And we'll meet again folks
In some other place, in some other way

I love you and you love me
And it's significance will never fade away
Never"

Reasons to love me
Some to be scared
So many feelings on those
Moments that we shared

Please just forgive me all
I'd love to stay
But without the faith I fall
With despair I chose my way

I just want to sleep away
I can't take another day

This pain building inside of me
Strong walls in castle of misery
It's sad life philosophy

Inside of me

In memoriam to my close friend
and a sympathic personality
Harri Kilpeläinen

© 2004 Darcane