SiteMap / AH Torrents / Intentions / Game / Affirmations

Self-discovery by Observation

As you know,
nothing affects us as much as
the answer we give to the question:

"Who am I?"

I have noticed that as my answer changes to this question so does my life experience. If I consider myself to be the result of chance then I will find proof in my experience of life that I am at the mercy of chance. It seems that the truth and the reality we experience is what we expect in our deepest, innermost level of our being.

Believe that you can or believe that you can't either way you'll get what you expect. If you believe that something is, then that's how it is for you. Enjoy it if you can but if you can't then change your belief.

I am coming to realization that I need to basically trust my own experience and my own feelings. No matter what anyone says and no matter for how many people something worked, it may not apply or work for me. Whether it is because I can't wholeheartedly believe it or maybe because I have come to earth with one of a kind unique ability and agendum.

What seem to work best for me is to be always positive and loving, no matter what happens, because there is something or someone always makes everything to work out for my good. Remember that each and every one of us is one of a kind and it seems that only the innermost part within each one of us knows what is best for us.

When I believed in Christian God, I saw miracles in my life, as the evidence of His existence. But when I began to see myself as the cause of my experience, I’ve realized the Bible statement to greater depth: "all things are possible to him that believes."

To discover myself – is the best thing
anyone can do to help me.

Whatever stage of personal development you are at, you would probably find comfort, inspiration, challenge and encouragement in appropriate section of this site. If you reflect on how you got to this website you would probably feel as I often do. That is, as if I have been guided by some Guardian Angel to just the right material that I needed at that time. My reasoning tells me that what I am presently experiencing is just the next stage of my development or evolution.

Currently, I am working on changing my default beliefs. Convincing myself into truths I want to believe. This version of my WebPage reflects the latest stage of my development in 2009. I think that my present view of life is the best, although at each stage of my life I was convinced that I was right and I thought I had the proof I needed for my convictions.

In mid January 2006, I came across Abraham’s teaching and I got so excited that I considered taking this site off the internet but after more consideration I decided to share what I got from their teaching (written in 2006). And in 2009 I updated this site.

* * *

For those readers that would like to see each stage of my development as reflected in my WebPages I've decided to present them all here:

1. The first version was written in 1996 as a Christian, after the anguish of divorce.
2. Next version was in 1999, after I’ve studied teachings of Mystics and Gurus.
3. Home Page or the index of 2002: Self-discovery by Observation this is written after I've read CWG which inspired me to write The Game of Make Believe - with which I am very pleased. After I've finished the 2002 version of my WebPages, I summarized my understanding of reality in an article Afterthoughts or What My WebPages Did for Me
4. Home Page or the index of 2004: Self-discovery by Observation
5. Home Page or the index of 2005: Self-discovery by Observation With links of March 2006
6. My Affirmations, Inspired by Abraham’s Teachings and Quotes (March 2006)
7. In 2008 I have created Abraham-Hicks Torrent Links WebPages
8. This Page is the Home Page of 2009. It is my improvement on 2005 version .

* * *

My desire is to clearly understand myself and how life works and I am beginning to see how I draw the events into my life that realizes the values of who I am. In other words, there are no accidents, no external threats and no negating forces that can act on me but the ones I draw to myself. I am beginning to believe that I create 100% of my reality and no one can create in my reality but me.

Because I want to know the essence of reality and clearly understand how life works, I ask myself, “What do I know and what do I believe about who I am? Do I know that or is it just my belief, based on conclusions of the information that was available to me?” I do not have an attitude, “My mind is made-up – so don’t bother me with facts.” Because I know that I do not have all the information, I cannot be sure that my conclusions are the best.

What I know is based on my personal experience but what I believe is based on conclusions of my limited mind and limited information that is available presently for my considerations. My mind, it seems, has taken upon itself an impossible task. It can never know what is best for itself, because of its limitations and availability of information, the next piece of information could undo all the previous carefully constructed view.

I thought that it was God Who did those miracles in my life but now with new information I see that it is my doing. Whatever I give my attention to (long enough) the Law of Attraction materializes it for me.

Who am I?

My present conclusion is that if I am eternal then the logic dictates that I am here, in this body, to entertain myself – to enjoy whatever the experience I choose. If I am not eternal then what is the point if I gain the whole world and do not enjoy what I am doing. Whichever way I look at it, the logic dictates to me that I am here to enjoy my life.

Whatever I am, I exist – I am here and not always experiencing what I desire. When I am not in control of my own life I often suffer. I have been programmed that way by others and myself before I knew what I was doing. If I am to experience what I desire and to enjoy my life then I need to reprogram my mind so as to take control of it.

I’ve noticed that what I hold in my mind, the image of myself, the hopes, the fears, the feelings and whatever else becomes the reality in my life. What I experience in life is a reflection of my beliefs, whatever they may be.

The real control of my life begins at the attention level. If I control my attention I can control my thoughts and my behavior. And my behavior influences my attention and my thoughts. Each one affects the other two. To gain control of my life faster, I need to work on all three at the same time, but especially gain control of my attention.

To gain control of my attention I need to constantly be aware of how I feel and direct my attention so as to feel better. I have noticed that when I am as happy as I can be, everything in my life takes care of itself. I am being more and more convinced that if what I am thinking doesn’t make me feel good it has no value to me and if I don't take care of myself first, I have nothing to give to others.

Other ways of looking at "Who I AM"(written in 2005) =>

Intent / Will

When asked, “What hinders you from getting what you want?” Most people will name some external source that is in their way of realizing what they desire.

The more I study and observe the inner workings of my mind the more I realize that the limits to my experience are determined by my programmed mind. To consciously reprogram or deprogram my mind is the most difficult undertaking in my life.

As I’ve delved deeper into the mechanism of my mind I saw that my intent is sabotaged by the conflicting elements of my own mind.

The inner conflicts of my desires or intentions are the cause of all my pain. If what I experience is the outcome of all my intentions, then it follows that all what happens in my life is my will. If I do not see that what I am experiencing is my will then it is because I do not see how the forces of all my intentions are interacting on all their levels.

When a person for the first time sees himself in the mirror he may not immediately recognize that it is a reflection of himself but as he observes the connections between his movements and what he sees reflected he can very quickly realize that mirror only reflects what is in front of it. It takes much more effort to observe before we can see that what we experience in life is a reflection of our inner state – our beliefs.

Fortunately or unfortunately, most people seem to prefer or choose not to see the connection between the inner mind set and their experience. If you are one of those individuals that would like to see the connection between the inner mind set and your experience more clearly, this site should help you.

To eliminate hindrances to, “My will be done.” I need to become aware of my feelings because they indicate to me what I am attracting into my life. Probably one of the greatest insights that I got in the past two years is the purpose of my feelings and emotions. They are my Internal Guidance System (IGS) to what I have desired.

Negative emotions that I feel are not because of what someone has done or not done. Feelings are only indications of what I am doing with my attention. They are letting me know if my attention is on what I want or do not want. My main life effort is to keep reaching for better feeling thoughts and I give my attention only to thoughts that help me to feel better. Nothing is more important to me than keep choosing better feeling thoughts.

By the way, my intention with this site is to summarize my latest and the best life philosophy, so that I can read and re-read as often as it takes to really make it practically my own. That is, that my life will be an incarnation of the best life philosophy I can put together. I also hope that it will help you to enjoy your life and be happier.

I would like to share a little about myself and few other things, before going on to consider, how to experience what we consciously want to experience; how to be conscious authors of our own life; consciously originating our own actions and circumstances. And not be as most, who are unconscious authors of their own life.

Little about me:

I was born in China to Russian parents in 1951, the first born of 13 children of whom 9 survived. I was 14 years old when immigrated to Australia. I’ve worked and studied in Australia, New Guinea, Philippines, USA and Sweden. I've also visited many other countries. I have been living in Finland since 1983. While living in Finland I was a Christian Missionary to Russia until 1996. I have two grownup daughters, grandson and a granddaughter.

More about me and “My Intentions” (written in 2008) =>>

Ultimate truth

The main interest in my life has been to discover the real meaning or the central purpose to life and to attain it. I wanted to make the most of the most important aspects of life. This search has lead me to many parts of the world and to try out many things. I've enjoyed some of the best teachings of Protestant Christianity but in 1999, after 30 years in Christianity, I realized that I wanted something more. I did not want to be limited by any system or beliefs. I suppose it is "different strokes for different folks".

Most of my life I was looking to find ultimate truth or reality and I believe I’ve discovered it. The ultimate truth is that each one of us together and separately creates our own reality by what we choose to believe. Most of the beliefs are passed on by parents to children and thereby the offspring recreates parents experience and their reality. And then he uses his experiences to confirm to himself that what he believes is true, a belief experience - belief experience . . . loop.

So the man is stuck in this loop for generations but the loop does change slowly depending to what degree, different generation are willing to tryout different belief systems. Man often thinks that the times have changed but he fails to see the true reason, and that is; his beliefs has changed and thereby he has changed his perception of his reality. By changing his belief systems he has changed his life experience.

Talk about changing belief or convictions, I’ve written many WebPages in 2003 – 2004 on different topics but just before I was ready to publish them I got into another subject. Which I thought would be more valuable to share and besides I could not find the time to finish those pages, because I was into the next subject.

At one time I wanted to record and share in details what I did to succeed in those things that I’ve succeeded in and write about on this site. But I’ve realized, that it will be impossible for another person to implement my method no matter how detailed it will be, because each one of us is unique. To succeed in anything we need to follow our own feelings not only to find the appropriate method for ourselves but also to implement it. So, keep looking and keep developing a better ability to instantly obey your own IGS.

Internet

In about 1996 a Christian friend made a statement, “There is nothing good on the Internet.” and I thought, “Strange, I find so much good.” Later I’ve realized that there is so much information on the net that you will find what you looking for, good or bad.

Do you always choose to do what helps you to feel good or better? If you have this habit then keep it up and you will succeed in getting what you desire.

You are reading this because there is at least some resonance in you with this message. If you feel good then continue reading it for as long as it helps you to feel good.

What you read here is not new but it is expressed in a way that could help you if you allow it. All or most of my ideas you can find on the internet, by entering into search engine the following line: "Law of Attraction”+Vibration+Attention+Energy+Thoughts+Emotions+Joy+Love"

Internet has greatly helped me to look at life from different perspectives and to discover aspects in myself that I was not aware of or maybe I did not have the courage to see it in myself.

“To challenge the unknown requires courage, but to challenge
the known requires greater courage yet,
plus a good measure of audacity.”

The next recommend pages are:

My Affirmations, Inspired by Abraham’s Teachings and Quotes =>>

Following are the WebPage links that have enjoyed. But before you check them out, please carefully look over the contents of my site.

The Web Links to web sites that I've enjoyed reading:

Esther Hicks is an inspirational speaker who dialogs with a group of spiritual teachers who call themselves Abraham. The Abraham teachings affirm our well-being and help us to recognize the power of joy in achieving all that is desired in life. Jerry and Esther Hicks travel to over forty US cities each year, offering workshops where participants direct their questions to Abraham.

The sole intention of this Abraham-Hicks Yahoogroup FAQ website is to bring forth the teachings of Abraham-Hicks through words they have spoken.

~ ABRAHAM HICKS YOUTUBE VIDEOS ~
http://www.youtube.com/user/AbrahamHicks
http://www.iam-iam-iam.com/atlantis/forum5/239.html

ABRAHAM-HICKS APPRECIATORS PAGE
http://whatanicewebsite.com/faces/

Road Signs for self help and personal development
Law of Attraction - Whatever we place our attention on, whatever we think about, imagine, believe and feel strongly about we attract more of into our experience.
What we think about, what we hold in our minds and put our attention and energy into, we draw into our lives. Whatever we put our attention and energy into, we bring into form. Whoever we believe we are, we become.
Law of Attraction works every time, whether we are aware of it or not.

The Work of Byron Katie is a simple process of self-inquiry that can help you see your problems in a radically different light. The Work is a gift to the person who is tired of suffering and is ready to live a more harmonious life. It's simple enough for a child to do and can satisfy even the most dedicated seekers of enlightenment.
Free Audio Files of The Work and Loving What Is
Audio Book

The Essence of Reality examines life from a unique, clear vantage point. Based on an understanding that whatever you believe in will seem to be true, perspectives offered here break through limiting concepts of archaic religions and traditional philosophies, as well as common New Age distortions and illusions innate to Eastern thinking.

Success Consciousness Website Articles, guidance, quotes, eBooks and ezine about spiritual growth, meditation, peace of mind, happiness, success, positive thinking, creative visualization, mind power and self improvement.

The Option Method is a highly effective way to help with depression, stress, anxiety, frustrations, relationship and marriage problems, and improve mental health.

Become Who You Want To Be is a site dedicated to helping you know yourself better, accept yourself more, and recognize that you have the power to be whoever you wish.