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I am hoping that you would read this first or after you had enough of my repeating basically the same message from different perspective. What I've written here is the best advice that I could give to my children with the hope that they will improve on it and pass it on to their children.

They, to my knowledge, have not read these pages but they have heard my basic principles of life more times than they seem to me want to hear for now. That is OK. My intention is to do the best I can and let them do the best they can.

These WebPages had a very major impact on my practical and inner life. I've really enjoyed composing them. They have convinced me that I need to "stop the unnecessary thinking" and helped me to understand how to do it. They have helped me to see more clearly the way to love, joy, peace and beauty.

To finish one of the versions of my WebPages I one day worked on them for 12 hours. After I've finished them, I tried to fall asleep but I couldn't, because I could not stop the unnecessary thinking; which made me feel physically week and practically miserable. Such was the consequence for over using my mind.

I was experiencing suffering as if withdrawal symptoms from a drug. If I would have continue thinking, which I enjoy, I would have suffered in a similar way as the drug addict, who wants to stop taking the drug, the cause of his misery, but he can't face the suffering of the withdrawal symptoms.

My experience has proven to me again and again what Barry Long has said, "To experience beauty, love, truth and peace, or God, your mind has to be stilled."

"It is the habit of the mind to destroy the state of awareness as quickly as possible. It does this by judging, for judging is thinking."

"Mind's desperate measures to fill every moment keep you from consciously being your immortal being. To consciously reach your being you have to resist the mind's constant demand for activity, and endure the restlessness, loneliness and discontent."

"Mind is busy all the time. It hates the state of neutrality, or being at rest without an interest to occupy it, because that threatens its mastery. When it encounters the state it rushes for a book or the television or someone to talk to."

But he also said, ". . . only through the mind can man reach the point where he can begin to go beyond it."

So, for your own sake, do not assume that thinking is unprofitable, bad or even evil. If you enjoy it, then enjoy it but make sure that you are honest with yourself and not as some who start smoking for "enjoyment" and when it has become a bad habit and they can't admit it and are too week to stop the habit that is killing them. The habit of thinking unnecessarily is no different.

As I was writing the above, I was thinking; "Am I honest with myself? Am I playing with fire? Ah, so what, if I am enjoying it and I know what I am doing. . . But is not this what many drug addicts and smokers have said to themselves before they got hooked?"

Yes, but in this case, it is thinking and I think I do have it under control; I've had the experience when I did go to the extreme.

I am sharing this with you so that this Website will help you to understand where you are and how to get what you want. I hope, that it will not be, as if another dose of a drug for your mind, to keep you hooked and lull you into a deeper spiritual sleep.

There is a difference between thinking that we need to do to understand how to stop thinking and why; and thinking that leads to more thinking just for enjoyment, which can lead to addiction.

We need to think, to discover how to stop thinking so that we could really start living. After you have read all that I have here for you and if you are deeper in your mind and enjoying your life less, then re-read this section again, to be reminded that the mind is the means to an end, to get to your goal.

We are to progress from our mind to our Soul. As I've stated in the beginning, "When the body, mind and soul create together, in harmony, there is no limit to what we can experience. Our soul is the key to that experience and our mind is the key to the first step towards that experience."

It has been said, "When you are ready, the teacher will appear". Since you reading this, you are ready for this material or for some part of it and you are getting some help.

With this next version of my WebPages I was faced with a choice: What is more important for me; to finish it as soon as possible and get depleted of my consciousness or strengthen it to such strength that what ever I do will make it stronger and not weaken it. Basically became a hermit or monk before continuing with this version.

So why did I decided to finish it?

Firstly, my mind enjoys it and since I am so identified with my mind that I enjoy it.

Secondly, maybe life is urging me on, to finish and publish it as soon as possible to help someone or to teach me a lesson, to drive my conclusions home to me. That is to solidify within me the realization of how important it is to be conscious all the time.

As Tolle has stated, "The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive. To put it more accurately, it is not so much that you use your mind wrongly - you usually don't use it at all. It uses you. This is the disease. You believe that you are your mind. This is the delusion. The instrument has taken you over." "... The mind absorbs all your consciousness and transforms it into mind stuff. You cannot stop thinking.

To become conscious of Being, you need to reclaim consciousness from the mind. This is one of the most essential tasks on your spiritual journey. It will free vast amounts of consciousness that previously had been trapped in useless and compulsive thinking. A very effective way of doing this is simply to take the focus of your attention away from thinking and direct it into the body, where Being can be felt in the first instance as the invisible energy field that gives life to what you perceive as the physical body."

And "AS YOU GO ABOUT YOUR LIFE, don't give 100 percent of your attention to the external world and to your mind. Keep some within." it is easier said than done.

Ideally, I should reach this state as soon as possible - the point of no return; when mind does not take up all my attention as it happens continuously for most people.

As it is said of alcoholics, "Man takes a bottle, then the bottle takes a bottle and then the bottle takes the man." I need to become conscious enough to notice when the mind takes the mind before the mind takes me. There is no hope for a person until he as the alcoholic admits that he is under control of his mind.

Most of us are like the alcoholics who cannot or will not admit. It is not easy even after we recognize and admit that our mind is not under our control, as any recovered alcoholics can confirm.

Steps towards full consciousness:

1. Start observing your mind and became convinced via observation that you are not always in control of your mind.
2. Do not give 100 percent of your attention to your mind.
3. Go deeper and deeper into the body until your mind is under your full control.

Summary of My Present Reality

When I've started to compose my WebPages I did not think that it would turnout into a working out of My Own Personal Philosophy or Religion but that is what it seems to have happened. Oh well, since there seem to be no teaching that I am aware of that fully satisfies me. So, let's summarize what I presently assume is the reality.

There is a consciousness within us. It is defined in many different ways by different people. It is nothing in itself to the mind's comprehension but it becomes what it is identified with. Like the electricity, it becomes light or heat depending where it is.

When consciousness is directed outward =>>, mind and world arise as I've imagined in The Game of Make Believe (page 12). When it is directed inward <<=, it realizes its own Source and returns home into the Unmanifested.

Consciousness <<= movement =>> unconsciousness.

Unmanifested or Consciousness (All That Is) creates an Individuated Consciousness =>> Soul =>> Body =>> Mind =>> Negative Thoughts =>> Suffering =>> unconsciousness =>>

The further the Individuated Consciousness moves outward away from love and joy towards unconsciousness, fear and unhappiness; life becomes unbearable instead of enjoyable. The suffering forces the person to look for solutions. Most often he find counterfeit or temporal remedies but eventually (possibly, after many incarnations) he discovers a way to become conscious again.

On this journey he is not alone there are forces that he may not be aware of that are guiding and protecting him. These forces are really his fellow journeymen that have gone ahead of him into greater consciousness or have never gone so far into unconsciousness. Some may call these beings God; what else is there but God, no matter what form He takes, because He is All There Is anyway. Probably the greatest step a human makes is when he recognizes that he is "not alone" as individuated consciousness and that all things work together for his good.

What follows, if he does not forget his realization, is a progressive "enlightenment". He becomes more and more conscious of that which Is and begins to take responsibility for his own life. Eventually he realizes that he is All There Is. His journey could end as Buddha's or gradually via psychical and spiritual worlds.

Presently, I do not seem to fancy the Buddha's direct disappearance into Unmanifested or "nonexistence". I would prefer to go through stages as described by those who experienced a near-death experience (NDE), which is similar to the Out-of-Body Experiences (OBE) in which the person seems to be consciously apart from his physical body.
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Once I was watching a documentary on development of new airplanes. What surprised me was that the designers and builders of this airplane were not sure if it would fly even though they had no reason to believe otherwise, because all that they did conformed to the known principles. In other words they did not call an airplane an airplane until they tested it and it flew.

I was a devout Christian for 30 years until I discovered that the foundations of major religions were the same. In my search for the ultimate, the best and to eliminate all that could be eliminated I've experienced many dead ends like the airplane designers. See what is left of my active Christianity

Sri Ramakrishna felt that all religions had the capacity to lead sincere devotees to God, and that instead of wasting time disputing which religion was the one, true religion, individuals should devote themselves to realizing Truth within the framework of their own religion.

I agree with Ramakrishna if I had no choice and if I thought that my beliefs had not room for improvement. On the other hand, as someone has expressed: "The conflicts between different belief systems are bad enough, and conflicts within each belief system make it worse. The only way I've found around this is to seek knowledge of our afterlife through our own direct experience. While I saw stupid and ridiculous beliefs in each of the religions, I also found that there were common threads that ran through all of them. I reasoned that what ever was common to all of them was probably closer to the Truth, whatever that was, than any one of them."

I've concluded not too long ago that at present in my life I need two things: worked out My Own Personal Philosophy or Religion and learn not to give 100 percent of my attention to the external world and to my mind, as Tolle teachers: "Keep some within. Feel the inner body even when engaged in everyday activities, especially when engaged in relationships or when you are relating with nature. Feel the stillness deep inside it. Keep the portal open. You cannot find the present moment as long as you are your mind."

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These articles are a reminder of what is important for me. I was helped and encouraged every time I re-read them.

If you like what I've written here and you would like to see it improved grammatically and you are able to help then please help me with my English, at least, with the first section of my E-book/Website. Please advise me how it could be improved. Thank you.

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